tears

she cried for me,
totally selfless because I'm afraid.
makes my heart hurt and
keeps me up when I should be sleep

I still can't believe that there were tears
that I almost didn't hear
but then I knew she cried for me
and when I asked her not to
and when she explained why

I knew that
she loved me
more than I ever had at that point
and that was just her being a
friend

How beautiful the tears, and it
makes me sad to think in that
moment I was unsure

I dream that I could have
somehow lifted her out of the
worry and calmed her
fears

but I am just me
and not powerful
even in my direct ventures.

I feel insane sometimes
because I dream we can
grow so beautifully
and simultaneously

and we'll be fed by her tears that she cried for me because of fear
and love.