Getting somewhere.

When I think of the future
I get scared,
Because I know what I want.
I know the possibilities
yet I'm here.

So far from letting go of myself
So far from making Them proud
So far from being content
so far from giving much of anything
to the world

I'm so indecisive that my doubt has consumed me
and now I am paralyzed where I stand.
and the possibilities are blurred,
unrecognizable.

So far from freedom.
so far from making them proud.
so far from being okay.
so far from keeping much of anything.

I am so tried of the future and goals and expectations.
I'll take my time.

Maybe not get anywhere.
Except the future.