MisMatched

I feel like my personality has been mismatched
and the tv doesn't help.
on the glowing screen
I keep seeing my propagative attached
to some clueless single minded character
where is the complexity?
I see good hair and lively lives
and success that I can't imagine for
myself.

I am not the most sentimental,
or thoughtful.
honestly I forget a lot of the
things I say,
cause I know if they're off the cuff
I mean them

and I think myself into inactivity
because I can't have one mind
I still find the highest solace in being
alone

and I've never depended on anyone for my drive

I am mismatched in personality because
there is no reason
these ideas should be trapped in this
character, who can never really
stop.
and.
speak.